papa's words

I have so many unanswered questions

why must you do this?
why are you treating us this way?
why are both of you treating us this way?
why don't you have the balls to admit that the problem lies with both of you, not us
why do you only think of yourself?
why are you such a coward?
why did you even come back?
why did u lie to me, to us?

why?
why??
why the fuck?

Both of you are fucking up our emotional balance...what makes you think we don't hurt as well? It hurts so much that i don't know how to show it anymore. i have to resort to digging up my old habit, and i wish i didnt have to but i don't really know how to act normal otherwise.

It totally helps that these few days ive been having recurring thoughts of a certain someone. it sucks that all bad things have to take place simultaneously.

The only thing that it helping me get through this shit is knowing that God is constant. That no matter how many people disappoint me, he won't. He won't leave.

I will never forget the words you said today


i will sing of your strength, in the morning i will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.- Psalms 59:16