random mumblings

Have you ever had one of those weeks where you come home at the end of the day and question your own values, your purpose and basically where your life is heralding towards?

i guess this is what people mean when they say life has its ups and downs.

But have u ever wondered how come some people have more ups then downs and vice verca??

oh well

oh a lighter note

i am a global climate change activist. Say NO to global warming and harmful pollutants.
Save the Earth. Its the only planet with chocolate

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Update 930pm

im really glad i talked to Lorraine (:
I don't know what possessed me to say what i said but i feel soooo much better!!
and so much more comforted

I think what i have been struggling with is how to balance the life i am accustomed to and the new one I know i need to live.
because of that comes hypocrisy, guilt and a large sense of failure in myslef.

I still don't know how i am going to cope with the change but i don't want to rely on my own strength any longer.

I think the best decision i made this year was to attend BSF. And i want to thank God for always restoring me in ways that i least expect.

I am standing in awe

Random scribbling

Stuffie in my Notebook:

NO food after 7pm
*Alcohol is not considered Food

Ocktoberfest!!

Ceciz's Bdae

I NEED A TAN

Spa Day

Conquer Food for Thought

Chew on Celery and load up on Fruit Juice

Marriott with TLLM

Met up with Ali, fangz and ceciz on Wednesday. Being the great friends they are, they fixed up suprise after surprise for me (: From presenting me a bouquet of flowers at the train station,to treating me dinner at Marriott's Pool Grill and then after, the chocolatey cake and the huge collage! After weeks of Ali asking what i wanted for my bdae ( he's suggestions included tying a bow on himself and presenting it to me, as well as lots of gatsbyswhich he swore i needed) Im really really happy and touched with the pressie. HUGE HUGS*

I don't know a better way of ending 2 weeks of celebrations than to dinner with a great company, good food, wine and conversations littered with lots and lotsof laughter. Thanks guys for the really memorable evening and for giving me something i will bring to my grave with (: love u all soooo much!

Photos

Becomed addicted to editing photos!! If you can't look good in real life, might as well look good in photos right?? Haha..Welcome to the world of flawless skin, bronzed bodies and thinner arms (:

Introducing the food.

I had the Grilled Beef Tenderloin, wrapped with parma ham, on roasted garlic kipilfer potatoes and fresh asparagus

Ali had Grilled Mahi Mahi with roast apple and wasabi cream

Ceciz had the Grilled loin of Lamb, with Ratatouille ,pumpkin mash and provencal style sauce

And Fangz had Wild Barramundi with green peas and lime butter sauce

Roses and Wine

What's great food without great company

And a great view of the city

Through snow top fries, kaya pastries, hot doughnets and chilli nuggest. heart fangz

TLLM. Ali, my flowers match ur shirt prints.

I wore a barney hat at Mariott

After a little too much wine

If u really have to do it, learn from those two. Marriott is wayyyy classier compared to Hotel 81

we would love to be considered for Carrie's Models Poolside drama

What we do at 5 Star hotels

What we do at 5 star hotels WITH too much chocolate

They make me happy (:

The collage. 4 years of growing, sharing and maturing as friends

Lastly, Cheers to many many mannnnnnnnnnnyyyyyy more years of friendship ahead of us. We've seen each other go through ups and downs, through fat days and thin days, through horrid hairstyles and fashion police alerts; so gan bei to that and much more!!

Praying for Agape Love

Malacca

Birthday Celebrations Ctd'

My ideal birthday celebration was one where i could celebrate with all my relatives and a few close friends. And i wanna thank God and my parents for making that wish come true.

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After going through numerous 21st birthday celebrations this year, i was beginning to get panicky when Sep was round the corner cos i had no idea how to celebrate mine. Being picky ( READ: Anti chalet/clubhouse/BBQ/houseparties), didnt help either. But papa saved the day by coming up with a great solution:

A road trip to Malacca (:

A short summary of the whole trip because i'm really lazy to type right now.

The thing i remember most was the constant eating. Dropping at pit-stops to eat, munching on the bus, stopping for lunch, continued munching on the bus, dinner and more munching. Had chicken rice balls for lunch and seafood for dinnner; i find it quite amazing that though we are neighbouring countries and we cook the same food, the quality and taste of each dish is very different. Thumbs up for Malacca's Mussels ( God knows i want to eat them again) , chenndol, jumbo prawns and chicken rice.

We did lotsa lotsa shopping as well. It was SALES galore and in a frenzy we did the retail theraphy much desired. haha. The tops were going at RM 75 and at 50% off ( do your math quick quick!) Thats approximately S$15 !@#$%^&* So where the shoes, the bottoms, the accessories....................:D

Had lotsa fun, couldnt stop smiling and laughing. But what i will remember most about that day is the whole experience that was put together by the love of my family members and my friends. Am really grateful that everyone turned up ( esp all my grandparents and aunties who have trouble walking) to kick start my journey into adulthood. (:

Dont have most of the pixies, esp those with my family members, but just gonna put in what i have.

Random Stuff on the Bus

Dan and i. He's 5 already????!!

My favourite Gabby. The nicole richie wannabe

Dan has the gun , but check out the bullet.

Snapping away on the bus

wanted to make the oldies effect hah.

Other Random Stuff ( when they got tired of cam whoring)

The stoners The silent sleeper

The ipod listener

The one who earthquake come also cannot wake up

And the constantly awake bitches

LUNCH

chicken rice balls. highly addictive. But highly dangerous. You totally lose count of the amount of carbo u throw in to your mouth

the very very yummy chicken dish

how old school can this picture get

chicken rice, i mean ball, war

DINNER :Not many pics cos we were busy using our hands to tear crabs and peel prawns!

Fooky and i with very spicy chilli crab

Rui ( and bec ) couldnt resist the jumbo prawns.

Cutting cake at dinner

That space in the middle was delibrately left for daeryl. i miss you brother!!

Last but not least, the cutest baby on planet earth.

my cousin debby.

she's gorgeous and she's going to make the boys go crazy.

Praying for Agape love.

birthday celebrations part 2

Birthday celebrations: cont'd

Went to zouk on friday. Was quite depressed before i went cos i looked very much like a fashion disaster, that is until i meet Fook, who decidely made it her aim of the day by getting me changed into a new outfit. So we went around town like 2 girls with a mission ( actually Fooky was the one with the mission, i was mopping around behind her) and did our fastest shopping ever ( a record 1/2 hour ) as we beat the shops to closing. I love fooky thank you for saving me the embarrassment and insisting on black stockings from that bitch.

Havent received all the pics from that day, but will just post what i have.

Fooky and i (:

We've been friends 8 years and counting, doesn't time just fly? Remember how we used to anticipate this day since the days we wore ( or rather I wore) our bata shoes and folded school skirt? I'm so sooooo glad that we are entering this new phase of our lives together because i absolutely don't know how i will get through it all without you. To a whole new journey of bitchiness, anti-aging lotions, collagen products, decreased metabolism, emo talks and bundles and bundles of joy, laughter and memories to be created and shared. I love you Fook, thank you for everything; i will always be here for you HUGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSS!!

The other bitch who screams very loudly, wins everyone on the dance floor, drinks like there is no tomorrow, listens to me cry and wail on the phone, loves bikinis as much as me and is God's constant reminder to me that he gave a miracle in finding a friend like her. love you Bec, its our FIFTH YEAR! omg, we've been bitching for 5 years straight?!?!

Cindy has one of the biggest BIGGEST hearts i know! and she is one of the nicesttttt persons around....Me and Cindy, who looked really good in that black outfit!!

She burps, has uncontrollable laughter and i cant take a picture with her without looking bad ):! but people tell me i sing better than her :D LOL

Jing and i looking emo. Jing your cam makes our complexion perfect! woo

My shallow neighbour and i. Haha, he is my constant reminder that no matter how much i change i'll still remind some people of shitake. LOL. u were JUST LUCKY during english 'O's !!!!!To more emo talks at playgrounds, and stealing food from ur house. big girls love beer.

Aubrey proving that he is the biggest cam whore

i love this pic of jing cos she does anorexic emo, SO deviant art.!! omg

I dont know why but i look real sinister as i cut the cake. Haha.. love bakerzin.

Supper makes you thin. ba chor mee has less calories than prata. so THERE!

Miss you nory, when you come back, we'll throw a mock party all over okay!! Dont choke on fish BOONS in Sydney

Lessons learnt at Zouk: very unsubtle signs that i am aging:
- My sister is clubbing. she is born in the 1990s era, thank you very much.
- The army guys are born in 1988 ( and to think i still fantasize bout men in uniform
- An abstract of a conversation between a 2 very matured looking girls outside Zouk" So which poly are u from?", " from Ngee Ann, u're from TP right, year 2? "

Oh God i couldnt continue listening. But well i'm sure at some point when i was in poly i must have made some aunties feel the same way. Life is one huge food chain.

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Continuing on.. On my actual bdae, BC came to surprise me at home! WEEE! And she brought with her prezzies from everyone and supply of kinder bueno ! Caught Ratatouille again and left the cinema feeling malnutrioned. Yuan, BC and i walked aimlessly around for food, clutching our empty stomachs. We finally decided on having dinner at this HK cha chang ting at Bugis. It was the same branch which went to in JB a few months back and for nostalgic reasons, we decided to give the local one a shot.

Well, it was more like we were shot in the head for even deciding to try out that place. Talking bout the food there is an insult to my blog. Its at Level 2 of Bugis Junction. Near Seoul garden. To anyone who reads this post, please do not go there, and tell ur family and friends and ask them to tell their family and friends.

Well, the only good thing was that if it was ur birthday, the restaurant would give u a huge cup of milk tea for free! hahah the milk tea is large enough for 7-8 people. Being very greedy ( and cheapo) the three of us presumed that the milk tea would be no kick for us so we harassed and convinced the waitress to give it to us.

the HUGE milk tea :

Three of us officially suffer from Milk Tea Phobia.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me